So we all know I have gained weight. I have been open and honest about that on here and also on my social media. I hate the weight I have gained and the way I am no longer the slender 6-8 I was not so long ago. This time however I have new goals and new plans to achieve them. Most importantly my priorities have changed completely! So here is why I am losing weight again!
As you can see from the above picture I am not at all happy with the weight I have become and the way I now look. I am so disappointed in myself and also quite angry with myself for getting to this point again. I do however know I am human and you can not live with regrets.
I, of course, would love to get back to the size 6-8 I was. At this size (picture below) I was so confident in my figure and in myself. I am however a very different person from who I was when I first lost weight.
Why am I different?
When I first started losing weight 5 years ago I was suffering from severe depression, I was in the process of escaping an abusive relationship and I was quiet and lacked any self-confidence.
Now after years of learning to love myself as the person I am inside regardless of the outside, I have changed so much. I am a confident person who will stand up in front of a group to talk when needed and could give a presentation etc. I am not afraid to challenge things I believe are wrong and I have become a whole new person.
Of course, I am still Jen. I am still the person who has attempted suicide, the person who needs antidepressants and the woman who stayed in an abusive relationship for years but that is the past. Now I happen to be all of those things but I do not let them define me.
Why I now love myself
The smile in the picture above is real. I was truly happy in that picture and I still am. Yes, I am not happy with the weight I am now and the size of my clothes but my inside and my life I am so happy with. If only Jen 5 or 10 years ago knew this was possible!
I love that I have my own job which I have built up and made myself. My relationship is exactly what feels right and Stuart makes me so happy. I love being a mum and am so proud of Ben that I could burst!
The way my life is now is absolutely perfect. Of course, I would love more money, wouldn’t we all? I would love to be thinner again and I would love to have a cleaner, chauffeur and butler. Of course, everyone dreams high so I am no different. I am however truly happy with where I am now.
The losing weight thing!
I am determined to lose weight, I want to be happy with my figure to add to all the other parts of me I am happy with. The difference is though after lots of thought is that I am in no immense hurry for this to happen. I am currently trying out the Do The Unthinkable plan from Musclefood (discount code if you want it at the bottom of this post). I will probably try other things or go back to Slimming World, who knows? I will get down to that happy weight again but whether I do it in 12 months, 18 months or 2 years I do not mind.
The reality is that I have realised that life is too short to miss out on things for dieting. Why should I always have a jacket potato when I eat out or say no to cheesecake? If by having cheesecake once in a while it takes me an extra month to be a size 8 will it really matter?
What to expect from me and my blog moving forwards
I will still be sharing healthy meals as of course that is what I will be eating most of the time. I will however not feel guilty for having the odd night out or the odd treat. The last time when I was losing weight I had a bit of an addiction to the scales. That is something I aim to avoid this time. I feel that weighing daily had almost become an eating disorder of some kind to me.
I won’t be a size 8 again next week or the week after. If this troubles you then please do feel free to stop following my posts because that is OK. It is my journey and I am going to ensure that as I lose weight I enjoy life, stay emotionally healthy and most importantly the numbers, on the whole, go down. This way I hope not only will I be happy with everything I am as a person but I will also be happy with the way I look and feel.
My life is great and weight loss didn’t change that, I changed that. Now I just need to lose weight again to add the last piece to the happy Jen puzzle of life. I hope that along the way I can inspire others with my words of wisdom, recipes and general chatter so if you enjoy my blog please do leave me a comment and share it with your friends.
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I think you are a persistent person and you will lose weight sooner and get the desired body.
I am also actively losing weight but feeling very difficult and hoping to have faith like you
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I’m so pleased you’re mentally in a much better place. Unfortunately sometimes we make the mistake of thinking all we need to do is lose weight to feel happy when actually nothing we do to our bodies on the outside will make us happy, we need to feel happy on the inside. Wishing you all the best with your weight loss, it doesn’t matter how long it takes, you’ve got this.
Good luck on your weight loss journey. I am sure you will do very well! 🙂
I wish you well in your journey, the best thing is to do things at a steady pace and not be too hard on yourself.
I have started my weight loss journey recently and I have found that it really sucks you in. It can become obsessive or I found I worry that if I have a snack then I’ll ruin the entire day. Life is definitely too short not to eat out or eat cheesecake. I look forward to reading more posts from you.
Girl, you are beautiful! I am so glad you have shifted your focus to loving yourself more.
Weight is just a number. Your heart is what matters the most and that’s what makes you beautiful.
This was a very honest post and you have been brave enough to share all this. I hope the best for you and your family, I am glad you will still treat youirself to the odd meal out too. x
Congratulations on your great success! The most important is to love oneself and the rest will come with time! You’ll do well for sure! 🙂
Good for you honey! As a plus size woman, I am currently happy in my life and in my size so I think it is great that you are happy in your life but could be happier with a smaller size.
Your body, your rules! I love the fact that you aren’t going to go without the good yummy foods and it may take an extra month…. You will still get there in the end, but with a happier journey along the way
I wish you well in your plans xx
You have made a big change and your story also inspires me I am at a time when I need to lose weight, I need to regain my balance and my physical strength!
It sounds like you on the right path to make your outside reflect how you feel inside. Looking forward to following you along your journey.
So proud of you Jen.. I’m just starting on my road to self love.. we need to be happy in our mind for the rest to follow
I feel your pain Jen and wish you every luck. I too have gained again and so desperately want to lose but refuse to miss out on fun times with my family because of it. We have got this lovely ? xx